Iargely Iegendry

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  1. Maybe I'll be exposed to those kinds of people then, but right now, I don't know.

    Part of my wants there to be more of a stigma on people who get aid, just to keep them grounded in their egos. The other day I got honked at while driving because I was trying to take a photo of this ridiculously customized car belonging to an urban youth that was parked outside of a Family Dollar store. I can fill a book with these kinds of examples. There's an angry part of me that wants them to have stigma for their welfare. Because I honestly feel like a dumbass for working for things that I have. I know it's wrong

  2. I think poor people are too dumb to know how to spend money. Maybe that makes me a dick. I've just worked with too many poor people who use their money on phones and drugs.

    Even my friend, who has two five year old kids and works a full time job and goes to school spends 1/3 of her check on weed. I have many other anecdotal examples of these types of people. I am keeping in mind that they are anecdotal examples, but they're the real life events, among others, that have shaped my views.

    Another example: My friend moved out of her dad's house. She was looking at a great, affordable apartment in our city. It was within biking distance of her school, and close to her job. Instead, at the last minute, she picked a "trendy", hipster apartment in downtown Fort Worth which costs three times as much as her first choice, and it also requires her to get a $80 a month parking permit. She then applies for and got approved for a welfare program.

    I have no pity for people who aren't like a widower or have an actual medical condition.

  3. Then we are probably thinking the same thing. They changed Pamela Isley's name to Ivy Pepper, though?? And I'll be pissed if they show Bane at all during this show. He's in prison.

    If the show is an endless cocktease or is constantly having pointless Easter eggs of villains, then I probably won't watch it. I don't have plans to watch it really, but I may if it turns out to be good. I like the non-supervillain stories. I like the mobster ones.

  4. Chase.



    The left/right spectrum is in regards to economic policy mostly, I guess. Not necessarily the stereotypes and cliches about what left/right mean. I guess I forgot that and was surprised when I saw Chase's results.

  5. http://www.gotoquiz.com/politics/political-spectrum-quiz.html

    I think we already had a test like this. I think I might have been the one to make it? I might be wrong.

    But we should do this test anyway. It's kind of neat. Also, if you want, you can insult each others' results. I am curious to see exactly where this test says you guys stand.

    Here is the format: the grid that it gives you is actually an image that you can link. So are the two scales below it.

    My results:


    Foreign Policy:

    On the left side are pacifists and anti-war activists. On the right side are those

    who want a strong military that intervenes around the world. You scored: -9.68



    Where are you in the culture war? On the liberal side, or the conservative side?

    This scale may apply more to the US than other countries. You scored: -4.98


    I thought my Culture results would be further to the left. I think I was neutral in some cases.

  6. I think that the problem of not being comfortable trying to live up to the ideal image of a man or a woman, and lots of other problems can be solved by disregarding the "ideal image" of any given thing. That way you can appreciate what you are, what you have, or what you do on a case by case basis, instead of measuring it against an imaginary, mythological image that isn't even your own. I think that the myths about people and things are valuable when growing up, but maybe at some point it's better to stop trying to be ideal. But also finding your own beliefs isn't "brave" or "progressive" or whatever. If you don't have the mental capacity to notice that your myths about people aren't your own, if you are too cowardly to disregard them, then you kind of deserve to be at the mercy of society and its judgments.

    But also I think it's human nature to compare yourself to others. That's probably accounts for a large amount of things happening.

  7. Bras do have a purpose. Imagine running down a flight of stairs with breasts. Saying bras were invented for sexual purposes is the exact same as saying that a girl is asking to be raped by dressing a certain way.

    The nebulous term "gender dysphoria" is really confusing and annoying. Just because a group of people give it a name and a description, people think it has become more real. Where does "gender dysphoria" end and where does low self esteem begin? What's the difference between a crippling anxiety and something that you should just get over? I think that giving power to words like these takes the responsibility from the individual, so that they don't have to grow up. They can pull the "dysphoria" card whenever they want, and in situations in which people have to just deal with things. I think we as a culture kind of celebrate diagnoses more than the cure. We want an excuse to feel a certain way, an excuse to which we can attribute our shortcomings, and an excuse to not deal with things.

    I feel this way about many topical psychological ailments, not just this topic.

  8. unrelated: what's the Limmy video that you posted once? He was like "what if I hate them?" or something after some teenagers walked by. 


    Edit: nevermind, I found it.




    I think I was afraid to express myself in the past, but I've grown up with that mindset. I don't think it's terrible to express yourself, but my learned tendency makes me have to actively think about it when I'm doing it. I don't like not knowing if I am doing something for me or for me to get something from someone (which is why I think people talk about themselves openly). So I often just don't do it. I feel like that thought process makes me look at what others share with more scrutiny. For some reason lately, the concept of expressing yourself is really, really funny. It's probably being around so many hip people and going to this art school. 


    I just think "what are you supposed to be?" I just feel like it's futile to express yourself. They are putting energy into trying to be different, yet they aren't really different at all. I think they should do it completely or not at all. That's my first thought. My second thought it that it's kind of small for a person to think of themselves as unique or special. Maybe they are keeping their goals small, too, and maybe trying to be relatively unique in their own circle, or in their school, or in their town. After the Internet became a popular thing, I just feel like people are trying harder than ever to be unique because there's more "competition". The world is smaller, and the fact that they aren't so special after all makes them want to take their self-expression up a notch.



    This is lit'rally the most punk rock post I've ever written holy puppy. I'm laughing re-reading it. But I mean all of it.

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  9. I think you and I have really similiar internal monologues and thought processes some times. More so than anyone else that I've met (granted, I don't always get to read their thoughts like I get to read yours). 

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  10. No, the thing is bad, don't get me wrong. I don't doubt that some people can relate to this situation or have stake in it. I'm not advocating not caring. 


    I just don't care. It just seems silly to judge or draw lines between people based on hypothetical situations. Because to us, to Americans, the situation might as well be hypothetical. We didn't even know those people existed until this happened. If the media had made the whole thing up, we wouldn't even know.

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  11. It does bother me when people feel the need to publicize things. I call my friend out often because she can't simply experience a thing. She has to google it, post it to facebook, buy the poster of the thing, etc. I don't know if people know how to privately feel anything. This is why I can't bring myself to write a profile for social networks or whatever. I just get reminded of people who only do/like/feel things publicly. 


    I am annoyed at things like this because I feel like it's incredibly insincere, methodical and arrogant.


    •It's insincere in that the tragedy didn't happen to the individuals who "support" things like this. They cannot know how it feels until it happens to them. Maybe something similar has happened to them at some point, who knows? I'm not saying that they're wrong for wanting for tragedies like this to not happen, but this event is so far removed and unrelated to our lives. It's not real to us. So the extent that we are actually involved emotionally is probably pretty shallow. And you can't truly care about something that you aren't invested in, so I feel like for all of the talk that these "supporters" are doing, they'll forget about it soon enough. Not when the actual event comes to a conclusion, but when another tragedy takes the spotlight. Or even more importantly, when something specifically happens to the individual, even if it objectively pales in comparison to the tragedy in Nigeria. We all think about ourselves first and foremost, basically. If this had happened in the West, we would not stop hearing about this for literally decades. 


    •It's methodical in that we think we can make a difference by mechanically spreading the word. I feel like the self-righteous are harvesting this event and everyone who "supports" it. We are manipulated into having an emotional response, time after time. Seeing lots of bad things on the news would normally make a person kind of desensitized to it. It's impossible for people to be truly invested in every form of suffering, everywhere on earth, ever. You'd just kill yourself out of depression. So I think people are choosy about which tragedies they are fans of. It's really annoying to see how all of the aftermaths play out to the respective tragedies. Everyone knew exactly how the elementary school's shooting would play out. It's incredibly exhausting to be farmed and harvested for endless empathy. It has the effect, on me at least, of draining my empathy. Because of how draining it is to be emotionally invested in every conflict or tragedy, the media has to do things like exaggerate, lie and use sensationalist tactics to snap people out of the apathy that they caused in the first place.


    •It's arrogant in that we think we can make a difference. People who say "change the world" are inherently ignorant. It's pretty annoying to hear peoples' plans upon the world, as if they have everything figured out. They view tragedies are hiccups in their view of the world. They view them as a small miscalculation in their plan, rather than the rule or the norm. I am not saying that I like bad things to happen. What I am about to say is really illogical. But as an animal, I kind of like it when things are chaotic, because I feel like it puts the arrogant people in their place. I think we all kind of like disorder. Like people look when there's a fight happening, or when cops are rushing some place. It gets us excited and gives us a chance to be active in the world, instead of having everything follow the plan. 



    In short, I feel like it's just really emotionally draining. I don't think there will ever be a true global culture. There are too many differences between people. And we need those differences, because they help us understand ourselves. I would hypothetically feel a lot more empathy for a white, male American being kidnapped than a black, female Nigerian. It's not because I hate them or because I don't feel enough in my heart. It's just that one is more relevant to me than the other. I know we should view humans as humans, and we all have like a baseline on which we can relate. But Nigeria isn't even a real place to me. Maybe that will change for me one day, but at this point, I don't really care what happens there as long as my life is uninterrupted. This is the ugly truth, or the truth that was always real, but is only recently being called "ugly". I think we can all be happier, more sincere, and more logical when we realize at what point we stop caring about other people. That way we don't have to act as if we are representing other people, or act self-righteously on behalf of someone else. We can pretty much cut out lots of stupid idealism and self-righteousness, which are both, you know, directly related to an imperialistic mindset. If someone were to stands up and say, "I don't care about your minority/special interest group", we will all gasp and puppying CRUCIFY that person. But in reality, that person just had the courage to say what many people think, but will never say. Special interest groups use our fear of not making a spectacle of our empathy to manipulate us and achieve their goals. "do you want the terrorists to win?"/"what are you? Racist?"/etc. Guilt tripping, basically.


    To answer your question about why I feel this way: I feel like I have a level-headed view of this. I feel like I have developed to this point, and I am annoyed that others have not, or that they refuse to see the ugly truth. It's egotistic of me, but maybe I feel like I am burdening myself or being judged by openly admitted that I don't feel empathy for people as much as the media would want me to. And maybe I feel like there are people who will never come to terms with their empathy or lack of it. And I feel like they'll always take the holier-than-thou stance, and I feel like they are cowardly for not getting to know the uglier sides of their own selves.


    tl;dr: stay true to yourself and your desires, idk lol.



    edit: I feel like I'm gonna come back to this post one day and feel like a psycho. Maybe 

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